Chapter one
I was in my senior year of high school. My friends were Emily, Leah, Alice and Rachel Jake’s sister who I didn't like at first, but once I got to know her she wasn't that bad, I had both boys I liked in the palm of my hands. Edward, my true love, an all star Basket ball player and hockey God. Then there was Jake an all star baseball player. Both are jocks. Yeah you heard me both and on the top of it Mike Newton, a dork, who has a crush on me. I can't say anything bad about him since we are all friend. His Girlfriend Rose is a bitch she is also a cheerleader, that I know since Alice and Rachel are both on the squad. I on the other hand play Softball and field hockey.
My brother Jasper is on one of Edwards teams. Jasper is in love with Alice. I told her to go for it since I’m getting tired of him asking me to ask her. She's a very shy girl and I was afraid that he was going to hurt her because of it.
Finally there’s Emmett Edward brother. I love him, but as everyone knows he has Jessica. I was surprised when she said yes to him when he asked her out. They are engaged now. That's what Edward told me at least.
I had been with Jake's best friend Sam since 7th grade, but in my freshman year we had our biggest fight. I wanted to go to an ivy league college and he wanted to go to a community college. So of course he wanted me to stay here. I want to be more then just an eight dollar an hour job. My goal is to be a teacher, even though I know the pay isn't that much better, but I love kids . He wanted to be a waiter. My dad told me that he was useless, he was right. Waiters only make 8 dollars an hour and plus tips. I can't live like that.
Jake and Edward are going to the same college as me. I think it’s apart of the competition to see who gets me first. One day after the a game, Alice told me that both were arguing over who would take me to the prom. I fooled them both I asked Alice if I could borrow Jasper. I know he's my brother, but it was a trick. See they first started dating each other a month after I told her to go for it.
So anyways Alice went along with it, plus she came along too. Jake and Edward showed up and it was funny. I was in love with both of them and to get them back was fun. I usually am not like that, but they both are fighting over me. So Jasper was my brother date, if that makes any sense. But by the end of the prom I ended up with Jake and Edward was very disappointed. I ended up with him I don't know why, but I can tell you that Edward was no good. He was in jubby hall for injuring a little girl badly. He was only 15 years old at the time. And I know my parents Phil and Rene-would never except him, so that’s why I ended up with Jake. I’m not saying Jake is all good he was busted last year for under age drinking and robbery. My parents don't know that because they wouldn't go for him either. Well that’s exactly why really wanted me to date Mike, But I was with Sam at the time that Jake had gotten in all of that .
I am miss prime and proper, I never got into trouble until this year. I went to a friends party and got knocked up by Jake. Yes I am pregnant now. This all happened a few month ago and I had to lie to my mom that I just ate to much. Which I don't think they even believed me about my eating habits since I eat like a bird.
Well anyways , yes it’s Jake and not Edwards. Even though I wish it was Edwards. At first I thought it was Sam's since I did sneak behind Jakes back with him once. But Sam told me that it couldn't be his. I haven't told Jake yet. I am afraid to tell him. Since I really want to be with Edward. It would break his heart that I am pregnant with Jake's baby. I don't know what to tell him, the only reason I would stay with Jake was for the baby.
So after school today I have to drive to the doctors for all kinds of test. I don't like this sneaking around, I just don't know what to do about telling Jake. I could play any sports for a while. My team was counting on me to play, but I can't wait now. Alice is going with me to the doctor, she's the only one that knows . I didn't tell Rachel because she's Jake's sister. I wanted to wait for the perfect moment to tell him, so he can tell Edward. They are both close friends to me and I couldn’t bare to tell Edward myself.
I could feel the tension in my body when I mentioned both names. I just want to be happy . Am I happy now, I don't know My life is going to be upside down for a long time. I don't know if I want to keep the baby or have an abortion. I am only 18 years old and I’m heading out for college in less than a few months. I have eight more years to get my degree and if I don't get it now I might never get it. I know there's always night school, but I am looking forward to finishing before I’m 28. I could always go part time, but I won't finish until I’m 28 or 29. I would like to teach before I'm 31. Well lets get to the present day. I was on my way to the library to study for my big test tomorrow. When I heard someone call my name, I turned around and sure enough it was Edward, so I waited for him to catch up with me. When he was right besides me, he wrapped his arms around my waist . I didn't make him move it, since Jake wasn't in school today. We had the same class so it didn't bother me that he would come with me to the library. He opened the door and we walked in and found a table to study at. He pulled the chair out for me and we sat across from each other. I took out my text book and laid it on the table opening it to study. I could hardly study all I was thinking about was Jake and the baby. I just hoped he didn't get in to trouble again.
“ Bella, what's wrong ?” Edward asked.
“Oh sorry Edward, I was just thinking about something.” I answered.
“Is everything okay with you two, you know you are always welcome to be with me. “ He said with a smile
“Yes I know, but my parent won't except you .”
“ You can tell me Bella.” he said getting back to the point.
“No I’m fine.” I sound reassuring.
“You don't look so okay.” he pressed.
“I am just tired. I was up most of my night studying and thinking.”
just looked at him, concerned that he might still notice something was strange about me. So I went back to my studying. I had no time to talk I needed to keep my grade above a c or else I won't be able to go to the college that I wanted to. Edward looked over at me and smiled. I wanted to tell him, but I had no choice to not say a word about this. I was afraid that he would be upset with me. Edward and I were closer now than we ever were.
Alice and I grew up down the road from each other. So it was like we were sisters, she was always over at my house or I was always at her house. She knows most of my secrets and I diffidently know hers. But that changed when she met my brother Jasper. Jasper is 1 ½ years older than me and Alice is half a years older than me. But we were closer.
“Bella, please tell me, I can tell something is wrong or something is bothering you.” Edward pleaded.
“Edward listen, I am fine.” I answered.
“Fine be the way.”
“Please Edward.”
“I though we were close?” he asked.
“We are close, it’s just that I don't want to talk about it .” I answered as I looked down at my text book.
“Do you want to come over tonight?” He asked.
“I can't I am going somewhere with Alice.”
“How about later when ya get back?”
“Look, I have to get studying for the test tomorrow.” I answered
I took one last look at him before I started studying. I could feel his foot playing my mine. He really wanted to be with me I could tell, but I couldn't really go with him since I’m with Jake. He knows that, but once in a while I heard them talking about me. But I couldn't really hear what they were exactly talking about. My heart wanted to be with Edward and my mind told me to pick Jake.
I waved for Edward to come over to sit besides me since Jake wasn't here it didn't matter. I know I couldn't get much studying done now. So I decided to close my text book and talk quietly to him. I thought to myself if I should just tell him the news or wait till after I told Jake.
Edward walked over to sit next to me and then he put his arm around me. I don't know what I was thinking, but I wanted to kiss him. So I did what I shouldn't have done and went to kiss Edward. Yeah I know I am dumb, but I couldn’t fight or resist the feeling to be with him right now.
When I pulled way from him there stood Alice. She looked shocked. As I rose from the seat Alice pointed her finger at me. I just looked at Edward and back at Alice. She grabbed my hand and walked me out to the hallway.
“What in hell are you doing?” she asked.
“I couldn’t resist it, Jake wasn't here .” I tried to explain myself.
“Good thing he's not here or he would of killed him.”
“Alice just calm down it was only one kiss.”
“You can't go out with him your parents will kick you out.” she tried to reason with me.
“Yes I know it's better if no one knows about what just happen.”
I respond as I saw Edward walking out of the library.
I didn't eat much of my lunch not with him staring at me. I know I was looking at him to, but the library scene was my calling and I didn't know why I kissed him. Maybe cause my boyfriend wasn't there. Or did I really want to break up with Jake and go with him. But it wouldn't be fair to Jake since it’s his child that I’m carrying.
I saw Alice staring at him, so I pulled her arm so we could get to the car and head for my doctors appointment before I miss it. I wasn't feeling the greatest and it had to be my nervous that were shocked. I had to wait for a little while before I could be seen.
Alice and I were reading a parenting magazine when the doctor's assistant called me into the room. Alice came along with me. I looked over at her and smiled, but she didn't smile back. She led us into the room and put my chart on the table. Alice sat down on the chair near the table I was sitting on.
“So Isabella , how have you been?” she asked.
“Well I have been okay, just tired and miserable.” I answered.
“Yeah she has been.” Alice chimed in.
“That's normal for a pregnancy.” the doctor assistant assured.
“It is?” I asked.
Yeah every one that comes here during their pregnancy feels the same, so I can promise you it’s completely normal.”
I just looked over at Alice and shrugged my shoulders. Alice just nodded and smiled at me. For the first time she did after what had happened in the library. I was starting to regret doing that now that Alice had caught me. I didn't know why I even did that, but it was all over and done with so I should stop thinking about what happened.
“The doctor will be in to see you in a few minutes.” she said as she walked out of the room.
Neither of us said a word, but it was strange being quiet. Usually Alice would of talked my ear off while we waited, but this time she didn't. I wanted to hit her so she would open her mouth, but I didn't it wasn't to long of a wait . A few minutes later Dr. Charlie came in with a warm smile.
“Hey Bella, how are you today?” He asked.
“Tried and grumpy .” I answered.
“Yeah I know, so your here for your check up.” he asked looking over my file.
“Yeah, but my parent don't know .” I hurriedly said. He knew my parents and the last thing I want was him seeing them and sharing the news.
“Yeah she is afraid to tell them the news.” Alice opened her mouth yet again.
“ You didn't tell your parents yet.” he asked surprised.
“No I’m not going to, not until I tell the father of the baby.” I tried to explain.
“Have you made up your mind about what your going to do?” He ask as he checked my viral signs.
“I want to keep the baby and I don't.” I answered.
Chapter Two
As Alice and I left the doctors office we were both dead quiet. My head was still spinning with all the questions needing answers and Alice seemed to be in her own little world. I was jealous of her in so many ways. She had her whole life ahead of her: prom, college, a career. Anything she wanted she could have all because she knew how to keep her legs closed. She wasn’t going to have to worry about what everyone else thought of her when her stomach grew. She didn’t have to worry about her parents kicking her out once they knew. She didn’t have to loose the love of her life because she made the wrong choice one night. Lucky Alice.
“Are you hungry?” Alice asked.
“No, I’m OK.”
“Are you sure?”
“Yes.”
“You know you really should eat,” she persisted.
“Geez, I’m not hungry, Why are you so concerned about it!”
“Because you’re pregnant and pregnant people are supposed to eat a lot,” she said as if it was common knowledge.
“What are you talking about?”
“Your pregnant and there so many things you should be doing.”
“Like what?”
“You should be taking prenatal vitamins every day and you should be eating healthy. You should
be looking into parenting classes you could take to get you ready.”
I sat there stunned. Alice had really looked into all of this while I hadn’t even thought further than keeping it or not. Granted, it was a huge choice.
“Believe it or not, I care about you Bella and that baby inside of you is apart of you. So I care about it, too. Yeah, I’m going to bug you about eating, sleeping and even how much weight you gain. You’re not in this alone,” she said with a smile.
“I always knew you were a good friend, Alice, but I never knew you were this good.”
“Hey, I’m not the only one. If it wasn’t for you, Jasper and me probably still wouldn’t be together.”
“Almost didn’t at first get involved with it.”
“Why?”
“I don’t know. You’re just amazing; and I love my brother, but he can be a player.”
“Yeah, I know, but if he tries any of that crap, I’ll play his ass into nonexistence.”
“And I’d help ya,” I laughed.
“No, you can’t. I’ll have to have someone to bail me out. I refuse to wear that horrible neon orange.”
I laughed at Alice’s horrified look at the thought of wearing an orange prison jumpsuit.
“Wait. Why are we at Walgreen's?” I asked as she pulled into a parking space.
“Well, you need to get on prenatal vitamins as soon as possible and I’m sure they sell them here.”
“How do you know this?”
“What? it’s Walgreen's; they sell everything from Bibles to condoms.”
“No, I meant about the prenatal vitamins.”
“Well I mean, I’m not an expert, but when you told me you were pregnant I did a little Internet searching.”
“Wow! I haven’t even done that.” Alice had thought about this more than I had it seemed.
“It’s OK, Bella, you have a lot on you. I bet you have already picked a few names out.”
“No, no names yet.”
“Don’t worry a lot of people wait till they know what it is before they even think of names. So what is it that you want? Boy or girl?”
“I hadn’t really thought about that either.”
Do you think you can deliver naturally or will you need a C-section?”
“A C what?” I said.
“You know, a C-section. It’s where they cut you open to take the baby out, if you can’t push it out yourself. Wow Bella, you’re really white all of a sudden!”
“Cut?” I asked, feeling the blood drain from my face.
“Well yeah. How else would they get it out if you won’t push.”
“I don’t know. I haven’t really thought about that either.”
“Geez Bella, what have you thought about?”
If she wanted me to be honest, the only thing on my mind lately was Edward. Judging by Alice’s face, she knew where my train of thought had landed.
“Please tell me you aren’t think about Edward and that damn kiss.”
“I can’t help it, Alice.”
“Yes, you can. You have bigger things to think about than some guy that you have no right even being with.”
“I have every right to be with him. I love him and I shouldn’t have to be explaining my feelings to you.”
“Look, I don’t like either Jake or Edward. You need to figure it all out now. You are stressed and I’m sure the baby can feel that. You might love Edward, Bella, but that’s not his baby growing in you right now.”
I couldn’t believe she had gone there. It had been a no touch zone with us since I first told her I might be pregnant.
“You know what Alice? If I could change that I would.”
“But you can’t and I just think you need to realize that and grow-up a little. Stop thinking about yourself for a little while and think about what’s best for that baby.”
“The baby that I’m not even sure I want?”
“Want it or not, you have it.”
I glared at the dashboard not saying a word.
“Look, I don’t want to fight with you,” Alice said after taking a few deep breaths.
“A little late for that don’t you think.”
“It just feels like I’m being more of the grown up in this and I’m not even the one that’s going to be the mom.”
“Don’t you think I know that Alice. I’m going to be a mom. My life is over.”
“Stop it. Just stop it!” she barked at me. “You life isn’t over; it’s just changing. Stop throwing yourself little pity parties and take this time to get your self together, before you bring a baby into it.”
She opened the door and slammed it as she started towards the store. I sat in the passenger seat with my arms crossed until she got back carrying a paper bag. We didn’t talk anymore until we got to my house. She didn’t shut the car off, but handed me the paper bag.
“Please take them,” she said not looking at me.
“Fine.” I got out and didn’t look back when I heard the tires of her car pull on to the road.
I walked through the house straight to my room, fuming over how Alice had made me feel so ill informed. I went to my laptop and started to type in different things about childbirth. I ended up watching a video of someone giving birth and almost threw up. How was I suppose to survive that? I started to panic and tried to calm myself before I passed out. I mean a lot of people did this and most didn’t die. There was those rare chances that someone did, but that was usually due to some other complication. I was healthy as I had ever been.
I turned the computer off and rested my head on the desk. I wasn’t ready for all of this. I didn’t even know if I’d be doing it all alone. I kind of assumed that Jake would stay with me and help me with the baby, but what if he didn’t?
I shut my eyes trying to push those thoughts away. I let my mind drift to Edward as it did most of the time. I let the ‘what ifs’ start. Like what if Edward knew how I felt. What if I could be with him. What if I had Edward’s baby instead of Jacob’s.
When I opened my eyes again I was at school waiting in the parking lot. I wasn’t sure what I was waiting for, but as soon as I saw the sleek sliver Volvo I felt peace.
“Hey gorgeous.” Edward said with a wink as he got out of his car and walked towards me.
“Hey you! Look, I was thinking about skipping. Want to come?” I asked leaning into him a little.
“What and miss all of the higher learning?” he said sarcastically.
“Fine, if you don’t want to come.” I teased.
“Your car or mine?”
“Yours.”
We drove a secluded area back in the woods, where I did little to convince him to sleep with me. It was magical and when he dropped me back at home I couldn’t believe what had happened. My plan had actually worked and now I could say the baby was Edward’s and no would know.
I woke up with a start and had to keep reminding myself that I hadn’t actually deceived Edward like I had in the dream. But no matter how much I tried to get it out of my head I still felt horrible for even doing it in my dreams.
I had to tell Edward how I felt about him, but I knew I’d never be able to get the words out of my mouth. I had always been a great writer, so I decided to hide behind a piece of paper instead of confronting him. I pulled out a plain sheet and a pen, ready to pour my heart out onto it.
My mind was filled with too many thoughts to just focus on one. I looked at the paper in front of me, imagining it with words, sentences, paragraphs of my thoughts, my opinions, my hope and dreams. Yet, I still sat in front of a pristine, untarnished white sheet of paper, while all my feelings were tearing me from the inside out.
I wasn’t scheming like I was in my dream, but I knew I that I could get Edward to be with me like he had in my dream. Then and there, I swore to myself that I would stay away from Edward for his own good. Hopefully. It would be easier done than said because just the thought tore at my heart.
WATW
chapter 3
Chapter 3
I was at my desk, for what seemed like hours it seem like, trying to figure out how to express my feelings about Edward. When I was about to give up, I found the nerve to write what I really felt. So here it goes...
Edward,
I don't know where to start. Well, this may sound strange, but I have to let this out or I'll explode. You know my parents don't want me to be with you and I am not very happy with Jake right now. I don't know if it's my hormones, or what, but all I think about is you. I had a great dream about you. I know you have feelings for me, but you also know we can't be together. I know you can't stop thinking about our kiss and me. I'm so sorry that I brought up about your past; it was an accident, but no one believe that it was. Well, I'll go now. Bella
As I was putting the note in my backpack, my cell phone started to go off; I walked over and I pressed the talk button, regrettably, to hear Jake's voice.
"Hello."
"Hey babe, what's up?"
"Not too much. Just studying," I lied.
"Sorry about me not being in school today."
"Why weren't you in school anyway?"
"I had something to take care of. That's why I wasn't in school."
When he said those words I began to get chills running down my back; I always wonder what he means. Did something happen? Maybe I shouldn't find out because my parents might over hear us talking?
"Bella Sweets, are you still there?"
"Oh sorry, Jake, I must have dazed off for a few. So what's up?"
"Did you just hear me?"
"Heard you had to take care of something? Yes, I did."
"I just can't tell you what I did."
"I understand but anytime you want to talk about it I'm here."
"Thanks, darling, but I don't want you to get involved with this."
Does Jake already know I am involved? I have to know what he did. "Jake, just tell me what you did?" I begged.
"Bells, I don't think its a good idea if I tell ya."
"Jake, I am getting upset and worried about you!"
"Fine, but promise me you won't tell anyone and you won't get pissed at me."
"I can promise one thing ⎯I won't tell anyone⎯but I can't promise you that I won't get pissed."
"Well fine. You know your ex-boyfriend Sam, right?"
"What did you do to him."
"I roughed him up."
"You what?" I could feel the blood rush to my head.
"You heard me. Rough him up. Like injure him."
"I have to go now; I have to finish my studying for my test tomorrow." I had to lie to Jake; I didn't want him to know that I was going over to see Sam. I don't want to betray Jake, but he dislikes Sam and if Jake finds out that I'm going to see Sam, Jake will be very pissed off.
"Okay, I will see you tonight."
"What? You're coming over later?"
"Yeah, I thought I told you that."
"No, you didn't."
"Yeah, around 11:30 or 12:00."
"Well okay, I guess, let me go now, so I can get done then."
"Okay, I'll see you then. Love ya!"
"Love ya. Laters!"
I hung up the phone and grabbed my purse, keys and headed out the front door toward my Lexus. I opened the door and went to Sam's house hoping he wanted to see me. As I drove to Sam's house I started thinking about Edward again. Why can't I stop thinking about him? Is that because I really want to be with him? i Bella, you know you can't be with him, so pull yourself together.i I was about into Sam's street when my IPhone rang. I picked it up and just saw Alice was calling me. I didn't know what she want, so I let it ring. My voice mail would pick up. I was just about to Sam's when my phone rang again. I just let it ring.
Once I got to Sam's house, I saw Embry and Quil standing in the door to the kitchen. iWhat are they doing here.I I parked the car and got out, closed my door and walked to the house. Embry moved out of the way. When I got into the kitchen, I saw that Sam was in a wheelchair. iThat Jake! What has he done to Sam?i. When Sam finally looked up at me, he wasn't too happy to see me.
"What are you doing here?" Sam asked.
"What? I wanted to see you; I thought we were just friends," I answered.
"Well, we were friends, until your boyfriend went after me. I don't want to see you again and our friendship is over. Leave."
"Sam look, it's not my fault that he did this to you."
"Bella, it's over. Just leave."
As soon as he told me to leave I left and drove back to my house in tears. I didn't know why I was crying. My relationship with Sam was over, but now our friendship is over, too. I had to freshen up so Jake wouldn't see that I had been crying. I parked the car, got out and walked over to my door and unlocked it. I walked in to our house and ran to the bathroom to wash my face.
Then, I went downstairs to wait for Jake to come over. I couldn't believe that Sam told me it's over. I thought we would stay friends no matter what; I guess I was wrong. I tried to relax, but it was not easy to do.
About half an hour later I heard Jake's car pull up my drive way. I took a quick glance in the mirror in the hallway before I opened the door. Jake was almost at my door when I opened it⎯I had to put on a fake smile⎯and he walked up to me and kissed me. Then, we walked into the living room. Jake pulled me lightly so I was sitting next to him. He grabbed the flicker and turn ed on the TV. We didn't talk for a long period of time. Finally, he opened his mouth...
"Bells, you seem distant from me. Is everything okay?"
"Yeah, everything is okay." I lied, I felt like shit for lying to him, but I didn't want him to know that I went to see Sam.
"Well, it doesn't seem like it. Is it what I told you about on the phone?"
"No, Jake everything is fine. I'm just tired, plus it's late"
"Well, if you don't want my company, I'll leave."
"Please, don't take it the wrong way."
"No, it's fine. I'll see you in school in the morning."
We kissed goodnight and goodbye then we got up and walked toward the door. I opened the door, Jake stepped out and he walked to his car. I stood there until I couldn't see him anymore.
I closed the door and locked it; then I went to my bedroom, got changed, jumped into bed and cried myself to sleep. All I could thinking about were Sam and Edward. I didn't want go to school in the morning. I had a good excuse to play hooky; I had a hard time sleeping.
In the morning my mom came in to my room and woke me up. "Honey, if you don't get up, you'll be late for school."
"Mom, I will get up soon." I just want to roll over and fall asleep.
I watched my mom get up and walked out of my room before I decided to get out of bed and look for something to wear. iPretty soon I won't be able to hide my stupid stomach anymore. I will get hell when they actually find out. I am not fool./i I walked over to my damn dresser and rummaged through my clothes. I took me 5 minutes to finally find something to wear. I hate being pregnant at this point. iWhy was I so stupid?/i
I got dressed after 10 minutes of looking for what I wanted to wear: apair of Jeans and a loose purple blouse with my bongos. Then, I ran to the bathroom to brush my hair and do everything that I need before I went downstairs, where I found Jasper and Alice at the breakfast bar eating french toast and bacon. iI dread going to school and seeing Jake after what he did./i
SO anyways, I got some orange juice and one piece of french toast before I headed out to Shitty Folks High.
I was at my desk, for what seemed like hours it seem like, trying to figure out how to express my feelings about Edward. When I was about to give up, I found the nerve to write what I really felt. So here it goes...
Edward,
I don't know where to start. Well, this may sound strange, but I have to let this out or I'll explode. You know my parents don't want me to be with you and I am not very happy with Jake right now. I don't know if it's my hormones, or what, but all I think about is you. I had a great dream about you. I know you have feelings for me, but you also know we can't be together. I know you can't stop thinking about our kiss and me. I'm so sorry that I brought up about your past; it was an accident, but no one believe that it was. Well, I'll go now. Bella
As I was putting the note in my backpack, my cell phone started to go off; I walked over and I pressed the talk button, regrettably, to hear Jake's voice.
"Hello."
"Hey babe, what's up?"
"Not too much. Just studying," I lied.
"Sorry about me not being in school today."
"Why weren't you in school anyway?"
"I had something to take care of. That's why I wasn't in school."
When he said those words I began to get chills running down my back; I always wonder what he means. Did something happen? Maybe I shouldn't find out because my parents might over hear us talking?
"Bella Sweets, are you still there?"
"Oh sorry, Jake, I must have dazed off for a few. So what's up?"
"Did you just hear me?"
"Heard you had to take care of something? Yes, I did."
"I just can't tell you what I did."
"I understand but anytime you want to talk about it I'm here."
"Thanks, darling, but I don't want you to get involved with this."
Does Jake already know I am involved? I have to know what he did. "Jake, just tell me what you did?" I begged.
"Bells, I don't think its a good idea if I tell ya."
"Jake, I am getting upset and worried about you!"
"Fine, but promise me you won't tell anyone and you won't get pissed at me."
"I can promise one thing ⎯I won't tell anyone⎯but I can't promise you that I won't get pissed."
"Well fine. You know your ex-boyfriend Sam, right?"
"What did you do to him."
"I roughed him up."
"You what?" I could feel the blood rush to my head.
"You heard me. Rough him up. Like injure him."
"I have to go now; I have to finish my studying for my test tomorrow." I had to lie to Jake; I didn't want him to know that I was going over to see Sam. I don't want to betray Jake, but he dislikes Sam and if Jake finds out that I'm going to see Sam, Jake will be very pissed off.
"Okay, I will see you tonight."
"What? You're coming over later?"
"Yeah, I thought I told you that."
"No, you didn't."
"Yeah, around 11:30 or 12:00."
"Well okay, I guess, let me go now, so I can get done then."
"Okay, I'll see you then. Love ya!"
"Love ya. Laters!"
I hung up the phone and grabbed my purse, keys and headed out the front door toward my Lexus. I opened the door and went to Sam's house hoping he wanted to see me. As I drove to Sam's house I started thinking about Edward again. Why can't I stop thinking about him? Is that because I really want to be with him? i Bella, you know you can't be with him, so pull yourself together.i I was about into Sam's street when my IPhone rang. I picked it up and just saw Alice was calling me. I didn't know what she want, so I let it ring. My voice mail would pick up. I was just about to Sam's when my phone rang again. I just let it ring.
Once I got to Sam's house, I saw Embry and Quil standing in the door to the kitchen. iWhat are they doing here.I I parked the car and got out, closed my door and walked to the house. Embry moved out of the way. When I got into the kitchen, I saw that Sam was in a wheelchair. iThat Jake! What has he done to Sam?i. When Sam finally looked up at me, he wasn't too happy to see me.
"What are you doing here?" Sam asked.
"What? I wanted to see you; I thought we were just friends," I answered.
"Well, we were friends, until your boyfriend went after me. I don't want to see you again and our friendship is over. Leave."
"Sam look, it's not my fault that he did this to you."
"Bella, it's over. Just leave."
As soon as he told me to leave I left and drove back to my house in tears. I didn't know why I was crying. My relationship with Sam was over, but now our friendship is over, too. I had to freshen up so Jake wouldn't see that I had been crying. I parked the car, got out and walked over to my door and unlocked it. I walked in to our house and ran to the bathroom to wash my face.
Then, I went downstairs to wait for Jake to come over. I couldn't believe that Sam told me it's over. I thought we would stay friends no matter what; I guess I was wrong. I tried to relax, but it was not easy to do.
About half an hour later I heard Jake's car pull up my drive way. I took a quick glance in the mirror in the hallway before I opened the door. Jake was almost at my door when I opened it⎯I had to put on a fake smile⎯and he walked up to me and kissed me. Then, we walked into the living room. Jake pulled me lightly so I was sitting next to him. He grabbed the flicker and turn ed on the TV. We didn't talk for a long period of time. Finally, he opened his mouth...
"Bells, you seem distant from me. Is everything okay?"
"Yeah, everything is okay." I lied, I felt like shit for lying to him, but I didn't want him to know that I went to see Sam.
"Well, it doesn't seem like it. Is it what I told you about on the phone?"
"No, Jake everything is fine. I'm just tired, plus it's late"
"Well, if you don't want my company, I'll leave."
"Please, don't take it the wrong way."
"No, it's fine. I'll see you in school in the morning."
We kissed goodnight and goodbye then we got up and walked toward the door. I opened the door, Jake stepped out and he walked to his car. I stood there until I couldn't see him anymore.
I closed the door and locked it; then I went to my bedroom, got changed, jumped into bed and cried myself to sleep. All I could thinking about were Sam and Edward. I didn't want go to school in the morning. I had a good excuse to play hooky; I had a hard time sleeping.
In the morning my mom came in to my room and woke me up. "Honey, if you don't get up, you'll be late for school."
"Mom, I will get up soon." I just want to roll over and fall asleep.
I watched my mom get up and walked out of my room before I decided to get out of bed and look for something to wear. iPretty soon I won't be able to hide my stupid stomach anymore. I will get hell when they actually find out. I am not fool./i I walked over to my damn dresser and rummaged through my clothes. I took me 5 minutes to finally find something to wear. I hate being pregnant at this point. iWhy was I so stupid?/i
I got dressed after 10 minutes of looking for what I wanted to wear: apair of Jeans and a loose purple blouse with my bongos. Then, I ran to the bathroom to brush my hair and do everything that I need before I went downstairs, where I found Jasper and Alice at the breakfast bar eating french toast and bacon. iI dread going to school and seeing Jake after what he did./i
SO anyways, I got some orange juice and one piece of french toast before I headed out to Shitty Folks High.
